Showing posts with label Relatiionships. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Relatiionships. Show all posts

Saturday, November 16, 2013

Emotional Behavior

This is some behavioral change I am talking about which I observed in a human being. How do people perceive themselves and how do they like to be perceived, its a totally different thing I think!

I started seeing a certain change in A`s behavior for some days. She said she feels that she wants certain people to perceive her in a way she thinks she likes. So she went ahead and started incorporating some changes in her behavior. Slowly people started noticing some change and started asking questions. I had a good talk with A. Finally she opened up to me, not all but partly. I understood what she meant but then I gave her an example which sort of blew me away, yes ME ! Sometimes some things are not clear to me or I have a problem and most of the time I get my answers while talking to people, be it friends, my kids, or R. I don``t know but voicing and speaking about a problem, stirs some things in the mind and what comes out is mostly a solution and you all know I believe in COMMUNICATION! It Works!!! So, confront a problem and see what happens. I have also told my girls from their Kindergarten days on, if you have a problem face it heads on, face it until it becomes a habit or a behavior. Then the course of the problem changes and the Status too, because you have learnt to deal with the problem and you can cross it out as one. It becomes normal. Now they are so used to doing it this way and I am so proud of them. I can give you dozen examples, which they tell me after coming home from the University and school, what they did and it Works! It was very hard for them in the beginning but now they know, this is the best way to deal with any problem.

Sunday, November 10, 2013

Nightmare


I went to the bathroom, put the light on and with the shock of the light which you get at the middle of the night, I started to look at my face with my half closed eyes, it felt so empty, naked and a bit sad. It has been with me for the past ten years and now without any warning or ultimatum is was gone. I was sad, wanted to wake R up, but anyway I knew he will not be able to help me in my silly problem.

I came back to bed again, very restless and so badly hoping for a miracle to happen, which  I have been shown from up there many times, big and not so big ones(I do believe in miracles, really no pretence)
I heard the quietness of the night, which was a bit scary but with the time passing I started to get used to it and it started to feel peaceful, quiet and silent except my heart was feeling anything but those things.  What I was hoping to find was like a needle in a haystack.

I felt very disappointed, sad and this time I really hoped for a miracle this last time for this day. I know I am a bit greedy, but I do that at times, and where do you go in such a situation where you most definitely know that a miracle from up there is needed.